limitless

beauty lies in that which is not safe

so we had uil on friday and after we got our score i went to talk to my director about last year. basically last uil the night before i had a horrible anxiety attack bc of my family and almost didnt make it to school for the contest and my directors called me to check up on me and were so worried and when i got there they helped me through it and told me they were proud of me for showing up and all year since then they’ve been helping me with it and i havent had a problem since. so this past friday i talked to my director and told him i was so grateful for him and for his help and thanked him for helping me improve bc two years ago i was so average and quiet and literally a nobody and they helped me grow and open up and now im one of the best?? and i was crying while telling him all this and he hugged me and said he was proud of me and that he loved having me in his band and then he asks me if i was trying out for leadership and i said yes of course and he goes “good. because you’re definitely a leader” and FUCK i cried even more because ive wanted a leadership position in band ever since i started and he basically told me i was gonna get it!! and jesus just thinking about my past is insane because i used to be suicidal and had horrible depression and anxiety and now i’m going to a state competition for a solo i performed and i’m being seriously considered for a leadership position and god i am just so happy that i got better and that i improved and decided i wanted help and that i didnt want to be suck like that. im very content with my life currently and i literally never imagined i’d be where i am right now. 8th grade me would have never believed that this would be my future.